It’s been some 3 months now and I do not know where my vigour for writing has gone. Earlier I thought it was my dissertation that took away all the space , the way my thoughts were channelized in that direction, but now everything has been completed. May be not, that empty spaces loom in thin air where they are full in their own ways. Full to the extent that if you would prick one of the bubbles that floats in the air, then instead of vanishing it would burst like a cloud of tears. It is funny how rain can take a metaphor for both joy and tears.
A few days back I saw my blog and a fellow blogger’s blog. Yarn of words was never meant to die, never ever (Yet somehow it felt as if it had died a silent death) Also, I’m not one of those bloggers who can easily put a façade and show to the whole world “hey, I can make people laugh no matter how deeply saddened I’m”. This is not to say I’m gravely saddened but at times you just feel like listening to the soft melancholic songs in your play list coz you are out of words to write or to speak. You are done talking and explaining to others and to yourself. You just want the silence do all its work. But silence is a dangerous arena. As much as it offers beautitude in some moments; at others it is at a big risk of being taken for granted.
I believe whatever happens happens for the best….past experiences have made me have belief in this belief. Yet at times the earth beneath the ground shatters for you end up getting hurt either for some things you took seriously even though they were not meant to reach that stage or others take something to be in a way which is beyond your scope of acceptance. And yes, this is the definition of life. Perhaps it has always been this way.
HOPE is on my end….Hope!
P.S: To all my bloggyfriends who have been coming by ‘hoping’ for something exciting to come by, my apologies. ( I actually wonder if people have been coming by, for there is nothing to read…..write…may be, but I end up keeping that in another shelf)
P.P.S: The second year got completed yesterday on 2nd July