To be or NOT to be

This time it all seems very hard.

This time I’m scared, for things the future in stores.

This time though I’m given hope, it all seems a distant dream.

This time, I’m pushing myself way too hard,

To answer the questions which my mind seeks.

This time self- doubt is where I reach,

Every time a hurdle blocks me,

This time, in phases,

I’m acting too pessimistic,

A part may/ may not be of me.

This time

Flirtation

FLIRTATION

A tinge of naughtiness,

A seductive smile,

Eyes that glitter,

And body that acts wild,

Questioning the other,

With a streak of flirty appeal,

A playful hide-n- seek,

Talks with eyes, and lips sealed,

A satin tug of war,

A push there and pull here,

A brief moment of contact,

A feel of breath so near,

My mad mad world

1, I’m soo in love with my college for bestowing upon my strong shoulders all the readings and the work they can think of.

2. Oh!! dude.. this uni I’m studying in is awesome. Really fabulously awesome.. and my class more so awesome!

3. I feel like burning my readings up..but that would only mean my money going down the drain. So this post.ha!

4. I dunno abt philosophical questions, but surely this sem is questioning my very existence of opting to be here in AUD and my awesome roller coaster life!

5. And the best part

How amazing am I??

Halloz …

Well I’m not appreciating myself here, but just thinking, am I amazing? Am I really really amazing? Of course best friends always make you fly high on the 7^th heaven, to know the real truth is hard. Very very hard. Well, study philosophy, then you’ll end up going on your own trial of thought ki reality kya hai or truth kya??

Things I can do well:

I can bake nice cakes (but not that great ones)

No I won’t start writing my qualities. Coz this blog post is about

In My Den

In My Den

Sometimes leaving without a goodbye is the best thing to do,

Coz then there is nobody to stop you.

       Sometimes getting blank is the easiest defense we can use,

Coz there’s too much in the mind, hard to choose.

Sometimes darkness is the best comfort for you,

Coz eyes get tired of the light they get used to.

Sometimes fantasies live the only aliveness in you,

Coz reality feels absurd and too vague for truth.

Sometimes you just give up, knowing it isn’t (a part of) you,

But the wait makes you old rusting the new that was you.