Life’s beauty .....

Life’s beauty lies in moments:

1.      When I see four sisters playing together. A younger one says something to the elder one in a bossy way, so the elder one goes at the back of her house and sits alone on a platform with a sad face in her hands. Her three sisters come looking for her. The bossy one sends the other two away. Comes looking for her elder sister. Just then the elder one gets down from the platform and prepares herself to play. She chases her younger sibling, only to make her annoy and laughingly goes to the front side of the house.  And the younger one, with a scorn says “Main nahi khelungi age se iske saath”!

2.       When I wave at a kid going on a rikshaw with his dad with an upset face. And as I wave, he suddenly looks up astonishingly and smiles back at me.

3.      When I feel the sorrow of an old rikshaw puller outside my campus narrating to me his life’s story; when he tells me that his wife’s leg is nearly broken and she limps and walks, when he tells me that his second hand rikshaw got stolen and now he has to pay 40 rupees to the owner of the rikshaw regardless of what he earns that day, when he tells me that he had one son but he fled away and married some girl, never to come back, when I greet him as I walk from the metro station to my college and he smilingly says ‘ Aiye na?” And I tell him “Main chalna chahti hun” to which he replies “Chalk ke kya karoge!?” At which I ponder upon.

4.      When a girl at Kilkari wraps her arms around me and hugs me for looooong, embracing me in her life and maybe in her mind and heart as if I was a part of her, only to make me feel loved in the ‘purest’ way possible.

5.       When I smell fresh oregano with tingling and yummylicious aroma of pizza/pasta.

6.      When a friend speaks something that was there in my mind, but couldn’t come till my lips.

Life’s beautiful surely, we just need to look for the beauty in it!:)

One Fine Day

I had a tune in my mind as i wrote these lines, thinking it might turn out to be a song, But some words need to be worked out for it to take a shape of that...may be I'll do that..One Fine Day......:) As of now...here is it:

 

I’ll leave you behind one fine day,

Yeah one day, one fine day,

I’ll take what was mine, one fine day,

One day, yeah, one fine day,

It was not selfish that I acted, you know my friend,

I gave you to save what was mine,

For years and many days, yes, many many days.

I’ll close my doors one fine day,

I’ll sit in the dark, one fine day,

Have you ever stayed alone?

Often we end up talking about the difference between being 'alone' and being 'lonely'. I think the important aspect in both forms of existing is 'being'. Existential, it might seem. But I do feel that somewhere 'being in that moment' helps us learn better about what life is, what 'people' are and if nothing else it can help us get closer to what 'we' feel!

Yes I've been alone, off late. I've felt lonely as well. Interesting? isn't it ? Being alone and lonely at the same time. Let me create a visual image: It is like you are sitting in a group of people, you are 'a part' of yet 'apart' from that group.(Wow!no wonder I don't play anymore, but words do help me play along).

The state of being alone and lonely at the same time is an experiential state, that which can perhaps be understood best when you 'experience your-self'. So, one is alone in a way, that one wishes to go mute, to be silent, neither listen nor hear what the people around you are speaking, yet there is this yearning for someone to be close to you, to come to you, to care for you, and if nothing else perhaps talk to you? This is wherein 'being lonely' comes in.

In relation to the title of this post, it struck me why

No Friends for Lifetime

No friends for lifetime we have,

And if they stay for long, surely there are reasons,

Seasons may pass,

You never know for how long they’ll last,

Some like a breeze will blow away with autumn,

And some might just stick with you in the chilly days,

And there will be those,

Who’ll love your hotness in the summery days,

And one fine day just bring the flood in your way.

Oh, you think it’s this hurt which speaks?

Well may be it’s the truth of ‘reality’,

No friends for lifetime you see,

Those who maybe are just ‘by chance found gems’,

Yet in the end, when you really need,

It’s you, who’ll find the sweetness like a bee,

In the flowers of life, some big some small,

In the rides topsy turvy or round like a ball,

You’ll ride with complete strangers you know,

And in some years down the line,

Things might jumble up or will be ‘seemingly’ fine,

In those moments what will you do?

When the friendship of years, all seems blue?

And maybe I can think of answers,

Or reasons may all seem rational to me,

But it isn’t hard letting go, you know,

Of the beautiful and colored memories.

I yearn for those, whom I have lost,

Not that they call me now,

And I can see who are drifting apart,

With me not bothered ‘that’ way,

For I got to move, I got to travel,

Yes, a distance far from you,

Well, I didn’t know before,

But now I do, the space created between me and you.

So, I won’t talk, though it’s a cure,

Coz words will be hard to speak,

I know you’ve begun to hide a lot,

In that case, surely the bond seems weak!!

wHEN A friend goes off FB...

When a friend goes off FB,

You feel (s)he has gone away,

A virtual world, I understand,

But it’s like a part of you has flown away.

The discussions over silly status updates,

The sarcasm that was coolly thrown,

The ‘pulling of leg’ on bad pictures,

The missing bit when they are no more.

And now my friend,